Gone Unnoticed, My Friend....

help, God
may i ask u for that, since i think i have gone too lost to be saved?
help, now that i'm falling, but still smiling, indeed, falling is good...
now world, to whom now can i turn?
where on earth can i build my sanctuary?
night and day are so unkind, so when is my time, time of my own?
My love, words will not do, nothing will...
My love, i dont wanna love u, since love is so untrue..
My love, u are beautiful, u are nothing but precious, u are somebody's brightest star, and u are out of my reach...
My love, u have heard my promise that i will never say i love u, and u nodded at me...
U have seen me unperfect and bleeding, yet u are still kind to me
U have been held, u have been kissed, yet u are still so out of reach..
U have seen me lost...
My love, may God giveth u everything best...
May He shine upon u...
I don't love u..not at all....
not at all....
never...
until God says I could use your last name forever...