Funny thing though....
i just had a heart attack,
or i think i did *lol*. Well, just looking around for some poems about mother (i was suddenly taken up missing my mom, so i followed that intuition and planned to give her some clever words to let her know that i love her) when my heart ached. It really did, even until now that i am typing this thing...my left chest, or whatsoever..arkh, i have reasons why im taking this a bit more seriously..I have been there before, these hurts have been going for long..uh, wanna know what came flashing through my mind?
1. im gonna die! (no, actually i didnt think so until the pain grew)
2. i have to call someone, or some people, let them know..its funny how i picked them in order :)
Ii call him first *lol*, its real, for me its funny that i let him know first, not my mum, not my dad, not my friends. but he was out of reach, so i turned away :) btw, he said 'the course isnt over yet' when i called him, so i dropped the call and walked to the nearest doctor :) Then i called my aunt, and she said that i should go home, i thought 'no, no home, its late already', but the pain grew stronger.
3. heart attack?! damn no, i never eat those things dangerous for the heart! i mean, i drink green tea, honey, im making myself used with bitter things, because i know that life is bitter! after the diet and everything, walking everyday, no genes, and heart attack? then i thought...
4. breast cancer? like i said, i drink green tea 5 times a day, they say it will reduce the possibility till 60%, besides, i dont have the genes, unless this jatinangor pollution really means a thing...so, a breast cancer, in 19? arkh..
u know what? i left the computer, walked along the way to the nearest doctor...wishing i had not told him cause then i felt stupid (why did i tell him? did he want to know anyway?). Im gone tired of asking if they really care, asking for their motives, so on. cant call my mum cause she is outta town *ironic smile*
then the doctor checked me up. she said its a matter of glands etc, and she gave me some pain-curing pills. then i got back here in front of my computer *lol*
my questions are
my does my left chest hurt? how is the mechanism?
why did i dare to call him? did i just hope that he would care (stupid)
why am i still alive, and
why am i writing this stupid thing?
*lol*
or i think i did *lol*. Well, just looking around for some poems about mother (i was suddenly taken up missing my mom, so i followed that intuition and planned to give her some clever words to let her know that i love her) when my heart ached. It really did, even until now that i am typing this thing...my left chest, or whatsoever..arkh, i have reasons why im taking this a bit more seriously..I have been there before, these hurts have been going for long..uh, wanna know what came flashing through my mind?
1. im gonna die! (no, actually i didnt think so until the pain grew)
2. i have to call someone, or some people, let them know..its funny how i picked them in order :)
Ii call him first *lol*, its real, for me its funny that i let him know first, not my mum, not my dad, not my friends. but he was out of reach, so i turned away :) btw, he said 'the course isnt over yet' when i called him, so i dropped the call and walked to the nearest doctor :) Then i called my aunt, and she said that i should go home, i thought 'no, no home, its late already', but the pain grew stronger.
3. heart attack?! damn no, i never eat those things dangerous for the heart! i mean, i drink green tea, honey, im making myself used with bitter things, because i know that life is bitter! after the diet and everything, walking everyday, no genes, and heart attack? then i thought...
4. breast cancer? like i said, i drink green tea 5 times a day, they say it will reduce the possibility till 60%, besides, i dont have the genes, unless this jatinangor pollution really means a thing...so, a breast cancer, in 19? arkh..
u know what? i left the computer, walked along the way to the nearest doctor...wishing i had not told him cause then i felt stupid (why did i tell him? did he want to know anyway?). Im gone tired of asking if they really care, asking for their motives, so on. cant call my mum cause she is outta town *ironic smile*
then the doctor checked me up. she said its a matter of glands etc, and she gave me some pain-curing pills. then i got back here in front of my computer *lol*
my questions are
my does my left chest hurt? how is the mechanism?
why did i dare to call him? did i just hope that he would care (stupid)
why am i still alive, and
why am i writing this stupid thing?
*lol*
posted by Miss Amazingly Alive's at 5:30 AM
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