to my wanderer
hmmm...long time haven't been here, what a quiet lonely place...many things happened, things that are not to be told nor written. Everyone must have memories, musn't they? my memories always jumped to unconsciousness without me even noticing them. So much to do, so much to say, days are never merciful, nor does the time, they just pass very fast, by the blinking of the eye...
very interesting, shocking things happened to me lately. One of the very grand themes is a debate on who should be hurt, and blamed, in a broken relationship, or almost a relationship...just need to spit it out, to hurt someone, to know that u hurt someone, especially someone you like, is hurt also. To know that u can't set everything right is a very malice feeling, at least for me. I would like to apologize, although i know it means virtually nothing, cause the damage has been done. I just want to say that i feel sorry for having done the things i did.
I'm sorry for letting u light the candle, I'm sorry for telling u my feelings and then just go. I'm sorry for assuming that u will be okay after everything we've been through. I'm not regretting everything. I loved the moment i spent with u, loved every attention u gave, but especially, I feel privileged to know u, even just for a while, to know the deeper part of u, though I can't stay there. I apologize, from the very bottom of my heart where u once dwelled, and, if it weren't for u and me, would still stay.
My wanderer, whereever u are now, if u happen to read this, know that I will keep the fairy inside.
very interesting, shocking things happened to me lately. One of the very grand themes is a debate on who should be hurt, and blamed, in a broken relationship, or almost a relationship...just need to spit it out, to hurt someone, to know that u hurt someone, especially someone you like, is hurt also. To know that u can't set everything right is a very malice feeling, at least for me. I would like to apologize, although i know it means virtually nothing, cause the damage has been done. I just want to say that i feel sorry for having done the things i did.
I'm sorry for letting u light the candle, I'm sorry for telling u my feelings and then just go. I'm sorry for assuming that u will be okay after everything we've been through. I'm not regretting everything. I loved the moment i spent with u, loved every attention u gave, but especially, I feel privileged to know u, even just for a while, to know the deeper part of u, though I can't stay there. I apologize, from the very bottom of my heart where u once dwelled, and, if it weren't for u and me, would still stay.
My wanderer, whereever u are now, if u happen to read this, know that I will keep the fairy inside.
posted by Miss Amazingly Alive's at 6:06 PM
3 Comments:
Hmm.. Somehow, this story remind me of someone! me and a friend of mine.. Both have a similar situation!
I've been there, in ur wanderer position..
Read ur blog, make me think.. Does she feel like that also?
Anyway.. Great blog, nice words, great vocab! ^_-
tnx oecupz, feel honoured that u read it. wanna confirm all ur thoughts and stop wondering? only one way to find out..ask her...seems crazy, but thousands of people, esp. boys, men, let go the curiousity for the ego and never know anything they would otherwise know, if they had a heart to ask what a woman think...:)
Yes, but somehow i feel.. most of girls, dont like to talk about it, they rather lying about it than being honest about how they felt..
Especially her, i always try to discuss around this "subject" but she always kinda avoid from the situation and begin to find another conversation or enjoy making fun of me.. ^_-
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